Keeping It Real: Thoughts on John Yamrus
‘doing cartwheels on doomsday afternoon’ (Epic Rites Press, 2010)
‘Can’t Stop Now’ (Epic Rites Press, 2011)
‘doing cartwheels on doomsday afternoon’ (Epic Rites Press, 2010)
‘Can’t Stop Now’ (Epic Rites Press, 2011)
There’s a strand in American writing that seems to combine a suspicion of an easy articulateness, a too easy intimacy, with a torrent of volubility. “Call me Ishmael”, the narrator of Moby Dick says curtly before launching into his wonderful flood of language; “If you really want to hear about it, the first thing you'll probably want to know is where I was born, and what my lousy childhood was like, and how my parents were occupied and all before they had me, and all that David Copperfield kind of crap, but I don't feel like going into it, if you want to know the truth.”: thus Holden Caulfield at the beginning of Catcher In the Rye; or take, even, a poem like Creely’s ‘For Love’ where the difficulty of writing the truth of something becomes the way into keeping going in the struggle to approach that truth:
Yesterday I wanted to
speak of it, that sense above
the others to me
important because all
that I know derives
from what it teaches me.
Today, what is it that
is finally so helpless,
different, despairs of its own
statement, wants to
turn away, endlessly
to turn away.
In John Yamrus’ poetry too, you often get a narrator who gets in your face with a terse statement about writing or life or death, who wants to give the culture at large something it needs, not what it wants, and who won’t allow either himself or his readers to evade the authentic claims of dailiness by escaping into the illusions of formalism. And yet, underneath the toughness, there is the unexpected lyricism of ordinary speech asserting its insights in anecdotes from talk , the conversations the poet has with others and with himself.
Here is a poetry which is resolutely anti-cerebral, a kind of street-zen-writing, an attempt to keep practicing what Yamrus calls “this beautiful,/ monstrous thing”. He slaps you in the face, sometimes roughly, sometimes gently, like one of the old zen masters whose only goal is to wake you up the life that you’re living, right here, right now, a life that’s always full of humor, ugliness, exaltation, pettiness, stupidity, brilliance, dejection, good sex, bad sex, sickness, love and dogs. In the following poem from doing cartwheels on doomsday afternoon you find that world encapsulated in a funny and strangely wise vignette:
Here is a poetry which is resolutely anti-cerebral, a kind of street-zen-writing, an attempt to keep practicing what Yamrus calls “this beautiful,/ monstrous thing”. He slaps you in the face, sometimes roughly, sometimes gently, like one of the old zen masters whose only goal is to wake you up the life that you’re living, right here, right now, a life that’s always full of humor, ugliness, exaltation, pettiness, stupidity, brilliance, dejection, good sex, bad sex, sickness, love and dogs. In the following poem from doing cartwheels on doomsday afternoon you find that world encapsulated in a funny and strangely wise vignette:
this morning
i was
nearly killed
nearly killed
by a
car
car
speeding through
the parking lot
the parking lot
at the
liquor store.
liquor store.
how
perfectly
fitting.
The self-deprecating humor here is typical of Yamrus, and in a world full of chance happenings for good and ill you either “play the hand/ you’re dealt”, or you’re in danger of becoming a self-important, unholy fool; as the poem ‘in the job interview’ from Can’t Stop Now puts it:
“they
never really
go away, do they?
they’re always
out there,
doing
their business
behind their own
crazy
set
of
locked doors,
desperately hoping
the world will one day
prove them
right.”
never really
go away, do they?
they’re always
out there,
doing
their business
behind their own
crazy
set
of
locked doors,
desperately hoping
the world will one day
prove them
right.”
The way I read Yamrus, even if the world will never prove you right in any ultimate sense, that’s no reason to quit, to retreat into cynicism. The act of writing poems, making art, making music is, perhaps. all we have to keep chaos and old night at bay, however temporarily. “the main thing is/ to keep it/ real.” We simply don’t know our ends, but how we choose to go on really does matter; this stunning poem from Can’t Stop Now says as much and more:
doing
something simple,
but making it
perfect,
but making it
perfect,
can often be
a thing of
beauty.
a thing of
beauty.
today, i watered,
pruned and re-arranged
our potted plants,
and
then,
i thought
of
pruned and re-arranged
our potted plants,
and
then,
i thought
of
you.
As a very public poet Yamrus, unsurprisingly, writes a good deal about poetry itself. He acknowledges Bukowski as an influence, but it would be unfair to Yamrus to say that his work is derivative of Bukowski in any facile way. I think, actually, that what they have in common, at their best, is an ability to look at and listen to the commonplace and transfigure it; it remains commonplace but it’s allowed its own peculiar eloquence as each small everyday happening is verbally refracted through these two individuals. Yamrus, in fact, is generally sparer in his articulations than Bukowski, and in my opinion he shows a surer touch in most of his linebreaks than Buk. If, for example, you examine the ‘this morning’ poem above, you’ll notice how the tone of the last three lines depends on using the linebreaks as slight pauses to give each word of the phrase equal weight, and modulate them towards humorous irony. Or take the lines I quoted from ‘in the job interview’-- there is genuine philosophical depth behind the various usages and positionings of “they”, and “they’re”, and look at the marvelous sets of multiple meanings Yamrus gets from “doing/their business” and from “prove them” solely by where he chooses to break the lines. Yamrus knows what he’s doing “and,/ for some / strange reason,// it/ works”.
The other aspect of poetry he deals with is how other people respond to it, other poets, interviewers, and people who seem incapable of understanding its art. My favorite of these is the poem ‘he looked at me and’ from Can’t Stop Now where the poet/narrator is asked in a TV interview “in your writing/ don’t you even care/ about musicality?” He reacts better than I would have, actually, to this question “that didn’t even deserve an answer”, and he says
there’s something
good about being hated.
The other aspect of poetry he deals with is how other people respond to it, other poets, interviewers, and people who seem incapable of understanding its art. My favorite of these is the poem ‘he looked at me and’ from Can’t Stop Now where the poet/narrator is asked in a TV interview “in your writing/ don’t you even care/ about musicality?” He reacts better than I would have, actually, to this question “that didn’t even deserve an answer”, and he says
there’s something
good about being hated.
it’s as real as
rain.
rain.
I’m interested in the verb “hated” because from Yamrus’ point of view it’s not overstatement. Many of the encounters he documents in his poems relate to people who seem to hate poetry, or at best can’t cope with its manifoldness and its anarchic energies, and take on the anyone-can-do-that attitude of defensive dismissal. Mainstream culture sneers at poetry as marginal (how many times have we heard that poetry is dead?), or tries to corral it safely inside the academy. But poets like John Yamrus keep working, keep fighting, doing their cartwheels on the edge of the abyss of conformity. Can’t stop and won’t stop. Loving it that “right around the ninety minute mark/ the poetry reading/ got nuts”. Can’t stop and won’t stop. Keeping it real.
© Ger Killeen